Why My Parents

 It's May 24 today. I feel so awful. I initially don't want this to feel a diary but it really feels weird. I know they're dead but it feels like they're only gone temporarily. The most painful time of the day for me will be early morning. Around 5 AM is the time of the day I usually wake up. My mom would always wake up earlier than I did, so whenever I would go down, I already see her preparing things and managing the supplies store.. I wanted to be productive but I tire easily. I had my life set for them. They are the source of my strength, but suddenly there were cut-off from us. No matter how often I verbalize the pain, the pain would still not go. I know it will be there forever. I want to be numb from the pain, but at the same time I don't want to forget it in the far future.

I'd like to list here some of the things that happened after their deaths. I'm not sure if these were supernaturally caused by them, but I like to believe so. May 14 , 2021 UTC+8 ~4:30 AM: I woke up suddenly, missing my parents. I felt sad and so aimlessly browsed my phone : I opened Viber, where I saw a message from Dr. FA (senior doctor trainee, timestamp: 4:43 AM). The message started as follow: "Hi... It's early in the morning and you suddenly crossed my mind. I wonder how you are doing..." And she went on telling her experience with her dad's battle with cancer and eventual death. I'm not sure, but it felt like one of my parents prodded her to message me around the same time I had awoken, to comfort me. Afternoon I and my two sisters were talking on how we're going to renovate the supplies store of my mother. Our main concern was improving the ventilation of the store. I suggested to modify the glass door of store facade, so that its upper half c...

Papa and Mama  January 2015 Greeka Kouzina, SM Aura, Taguig City travelouuu: My Parents' Joint Birthday Celebration at Greeka Kouzina (January 2015)

" Kuya boyong kausapin mo si papa, parang walang gana sa buhay " ("Brother, talk to papa. He's like he's giving up on life" May 7 9:33 PM UTC+8 Sent to my brother via FB messenger

I made this blog for my parents, who died because of post-COVID19 complications. They are the two most important persons in my life, so I'd like to immortalize them at least in this little spot of the internet. Lily Valdez Go January 12, 1959 - May 11, 2021 2:47 AM UTC+8 Age: 62 years 3 months 30 days Place of death:CCU3, St. Luke's Medical Center - Global City, Taguig City, Philippines Robert Tomines Go January 17, 2021 - May 8, 2021 2:13 AM UTC+8 Age: 64 years 4 months 1 day Place of death: N1517, St. Luke's Medical Center - Global City, Taguig City, Philippines When my parents were at the brink of death, I had started asking God, " Why them? "